Mixed feeling and confusion help?

I think you are suffering baby blues, you seem to have a loving partner, dont blow it. Life is very hard when trying to bring up kids on your own. Just talk it over in a quiet and sensible way, see your Doctor, do anything you can, but, believe me, the gr is NOT greener on the other side. My best wishes to you x PS Can you get one of your family to babysit so that you can both have some time together? it may help.